Pretty self-explanatory, really? So far this includes originals, Supernatural fiction, Lost fiction, Firefly fiction and Pirates of the Caribbean Fiction.

This is my Collected Works.

 

Anna felt different.

With her memory recovered, Anna recognised how unlike herself she felt. She remembered her thoughts, infantile as they were, as a child, so insignificantly small compared to what she had been. Nothing about herself was as it once was. Anna was disconnected from the higher order now. She could hear them she when permitted it, but it was inexistent compared to directing a garrison of angels under the Lord’s command. She felt distant from her Father more than from her kin, and she felt the inkling of fear she had cowered under in her youth. She felt dulled and powerless; her orders were nothing now.

Anna felt mortal.

Her own body was but a foreign object to her. She felt trapped inside this single form, her very self dying with every passing second. Slowly, but dying nonetheless. Though her skin was smooth and her eyes bright, to Anna they were limited – finite. It would end, all of it. She could feel her heart’s beat, her pulse. She felt her nerves twitch in such a humanly imperfect way.

Anna drowned in her mortality, and from the moment she regained her memories, one thing was clear to her. More than she wanted to help the Winchesters or keep her life here on Earth, Anna wanted her grace back. She wanted to escape this faulty existence for the assured might she’d once held.

Everything felt so wrong, to have angelic thoughts in a human mind. She felt as if she could never escape this mortal self. She had now experienced it; she wouldn’t be able to forget. To forget that she had felt.

aja_evenstar

Her sallow skin bore a yellowed tinge in the lamp light. Only under the bunk lamp did she have any colour at all. Even under the Sun, River didn’t have a healthy complexion. Simon wondered how long she had been isolated in order for her skin to pale so deeply that no amount of days on land could help her.

Every night Simon would come and sit by River’s bed to try and aid her to sleep. Her sense of safety was non-existent without him and Simon knew it. It was almost impossible for her to approach relaxation in his absence. However, even when finally asleep she seemed tense. Her tight posture and unsettled expression told Simon that she was not only haunted by her conscious mind, but beyond it. She would stir and moan while asleep, and Simon could do little but be there in case she woke. He would never wake her himself; she had confessed that nothing her subconscious mind could show her was worse than her active thoughts.

She slept in a foetal position, curled in on herself, hands balled and head resting on her chest. Her stringy hair clutched her forehead, perspiration beading. Even now, months after her rescue, River had shown little improvement. Simon didn’t know what he could possibly do for her, but he buried this thought at the back of his mind. He could not let himself think that he had reached the end of the road now. Hope for improvement was not only all he had, but all River had; and it was more important than anything that she could hold on to that.

Simon adjusted himself in his seat. River’s blanket had slipped from her shoulder, revealing bare skin he feared would grow cold. The pearlescent glow was evident beside his own hand, white as it was, as he slowly covered her up. He was careful not to touch her himself; she was sensitive to human contact, and even towards her own brother did not take kindly.

Simon’s burden was, although different to River’s, equal in weight. His fears did not parallel hers, but his concern for her welfare and their safety outside Alliance plagued his thoughts at almost every waking hour. Even on Serenity, Simon was not certain of their safety. Their outlawed status was a threat to everyone on board, and it was clear they were not always welcome. The Captain had been kind enough to consider them part of his crew, and members of the ship had been of a great comfort at times to River. But there were those who resented his presence. Simon was not comfortable having River just wonder where ever she liked; he’d often find her kneeling somewhere or sitting in a corner, head in her hands and tears cascading down her cheeks. Simon would try to calm her and reassure her of her safety here, but it troubled him that in his mind, he wasn’t so sure of this. With a strong heart, Simon told himself that it didn’t matter what he thought or knew; his primary role here was taking care of River. He was her big brother, it was his duty.

With a sigh, he lifted himself out of the seat and walked out of the small room, leaving on River’s lamp. He suspected she would be more comfortable waking to a warm glow than a dim ship. Entering his own room just opposite hers, he settled into his own bed and relaxed his eyes, preparing to repeat the cycle over again tomorrow.

The promise ahead was so overwhelming, so fresh and unexplored. Stanford was buried in expectations, but Sam Winchester was optimistic. Finally free of his burdening life, Sam breathed deeply the scent of normalcy. The ain was full of opportunity.

Along with his family, Sam had moved on from his imposed obligation of revenge. Now, Sam stood in the middle of a world void of demons and werewolves and horrors. He felt so inexperienced, like a child brought into a new culture. Completely alien to custom and tradition, uninformed in simply how to live.

It was the first time he hadn’t had his father pushing from behind and his brother leading from ahead. It was just Sam, alone and ready for it.

Books in hand, he followed the campus map until he found the room of his first class. His first step toward freedom.

*

He found his favourite place to sit and study. In one of the Stanford courtyards was a corner of grass, shaded by a willow tree, and peace seemed to congregate there. It was here Sam saw that amazing head of blonde hair for the first time.

Next to her, he felt even more foreign. She was beautiful and fun, relaxed and gentle. He was simply not. His past was not. He knew rough and terror and command. He did not know light. Sam also realised that he had never truly known love. Here, it felt realistic and attainable. Here, he thought, love was within reach.

Slowly, he felt himself mould to the conformities of normality, being reshaped to suit this world. He moved deeper into this second life, forming roots he’d never had before. But inside there was always that alienated piece of soul, something that told him those monster were still out there. His old life had not been destroyed. No matter how he tried to build himself a new existence, there would always be Sam Winchester: hunter. Latin inscriptions he’d memorised were carved on the undersides of furniture, a set of silver utensils lay in the draw, and his unending levels of stored salt were proof to Sam that he hadn’t truly left himself back in that cheap hotel. He was always going to be a stranger to the regular.

Title: City of the Damned
Author: aja_evenstar
Fandom: Supernatural
Characters: Castiel, Dean, Alistair
Warning/Rating: PG. Dark themes?
Disclaimer: Not my characters.
Summary: The instruction was clear: retrieve Dean from Perdition, before he is broken.

A.N.// Thanks to srchxandxdstry for looking over this for me. This story has been in the works since 4x16 aired, but it needed a lot of revisions before i thought it was adequate.

 

For some reason cameras have a natural tendency to zoom out. We were slightly closer than it appears here


The rest of the room

• When he arrived on stage, he declared that he felt like he should be teaching us hahaha (it was an actual lecture theatre).
• The computer chair given to the guest was a swivelling computer chair, and Misha was so amused by it when he came out haha. He twirled it from side to side for about a minute quite happily. At one question he actually spun himself right around and then stopped short when facing the audience, launching right into the answer hahaha. It was so funny. One of the girls at the front of my section had a question and none of the staff members running around with microphones were close to her so Misha just made his way over. He was so close again! When he returned to the stage and sat on the chair he had to steady himself on the table because it just kept turning lol!
• He had a water bottle which he was trying to unscrew in his hand, and coupled with the microphone, he said "I'm holding too many things", shortly followed by "can i have a table... and a pony" LOL. Not a moment later a tall skinny table was brought to him so he could lean things on it haha.
• One of the ongoing jokes of the panel ended up being Castiel's ponies haha. Someone asked what Misha's favourite memory on set was, but he mistook it as he favourite memory overall, and said he'd been thinking of his childhood. Then somebody yelled out "when he had a pony", which sent Misha into laughing fits for a couple of minutes. It was so cute! Hahaha. Later on Misha brought up Castiel's invisible ponies who are apparently always on the show; they're just invisible.
• The other ongoing joke was about how Cas is apparently a wuss hahahaha. Misha gave his mic to someone in the audience a second time, and when they said that he seemed to get beaten up a lot he tried to snatch it back lol! He translated the question as "Why is Castiel such a wuss?" He said he always looked forward to seeing fight scenes, and then it always ended with Castiel on the ground hahaha. He thought it was weird how he could handle getting stabbed with a knife up to the hilt, but a right jab gets him; he concluded with "an insult must really finish him off" HAHAHAHA.
• This discussion continued when a question came up about Castiel's powers. Misha said they haven't seen anyone weaker than Cas, so he's the lowest we've seen yet lol. Although he said, Castiel does seem to have some impressive powers with washing and mending his clothes haha. He was later asked about hobbies and somebody yelled out "sewing", and he followed up with "darning especially" hahaha.
• When asked about his acting method, Misha answered, "Well i begin by pretending. To be an angel."
• One person asked him if, since he's so funny, he's every considered stand-up. Misha was silent for a minute, then said "I'm considering it now" lol.
• Someone asked if Jared had played any pranks on Misha, and he reported that apparently Jared thought he was too much of a wuss to take it hahaha.
• Misha said he thought 4x18 was the best episode of the season so far, especially because (while pointing) "it involved you!". He said he emailed the writers a lot saying he thought the script he'd just read was the best one yet; he's done it so many times haha.
• If Misha wasn't playing Castiel, he would like to play Dean ;)
• When he got the part of Castiel, Misha went back and watched the show because he hadn't seen it, and after watching a few episodes he began to have nightmares for a while lol! Aw.
• A question came up about whether or not Castiel's character would exist if the writer's strike hadn't diverted the original plot. I think its common knowledge that originally Sam was going to develop his powers in season 3 and Dean was never going to go to Hell. Misha thought it funny that the strike may have actually helped him get work. He also told us Eric told him that he'd come up with the angel arc in the bathroom LOL. Oh Eric.
• Apparnenly 4x18;s "simpatico" exists! Misha thought it would be funny to stalk a fan hahhahaha.
• One fan asked if Misha was excited about Castiel's character development in terms of his approach to emotions and the way he is being affected by being around humans, evident in the slight smirk he gave in 4x18. Misha said he was really enjoying it, and thought it hilarious that we paid attention to closely. All he has to do if give the tiniest little hint of a smirk and we're all like "Castiel's mixing it up!" hahahahaha.
• Misha would cast Hannah Montana was Lucifer HAHAHAHAHAHAAHHA.
• Somebody commented on how Misha must be a really good actor because in real life he's so funny, but Castiel is such a serious character. Misha just stared for about ten seconds and then said "i am a very serious person" LOL.
• At the end of the panel, Misha picked up the huge bag of fantales next to his chair and began throwing handfuls out at the audience lol! It was raining down on the front sections. For anyone who doesn't know, fantales are small chocolate-covered caramels with celebrity trivia on the wrappers.

• The first thing i thought of when i saw the computer chair, even before Misha's panel, was what Jared's reaction would be. I just knew he'd want to play with it, and play he did hahahahah. He sat down and immediately began spinning on it. Then he began to lower it and lift it again, then lower it. And he said he'd be doing it for the whole panel hahahahaha.
• Jared said he felt like a professor being on the stage haha.
• The photo above shows him inspecting the bag of fantales, and due to his notorious sweet tooth, dove right in LOL. Well poor Jared was picking the caramel out of his teeth for the entire panel LOL. At one point he finally exclaimed "this is ridiculous!" and even turned his back to us in embarrassment to try and get it all out *loves*. But he didn't learn his lesson at all; he went back for more during the whole panel! HAhaha. One particular fan said she wanted to tell him a story so he quickly grabbed for another fantale as he wouldn't have to talk for a few minutes lol! And then after she was done, he asked if anyone else had any stories so he could continue to eat and pick his teeth without interrupting his own speech HAHA. He threw a few out at the crowd at the beginning of his panel, and they went right to the back!
• Like Misha, Jared offered his mic to one of the girls in the front row so she could ask her question, and when she went to grab it Jared said in a flat voice "Don't touch my mic" LOL. It was so funny hahaha. It was the exact tone i've heard in so many other convention videos: i was excited to hear it in real life.
• One fan right at the back wanted to ask a question and Jared shielded his eyes because he said the lights were so bright. Immediately the lights were dimmed which entertained Jared greatly haha. Then he said "everyone just got a lot better looking" HAHAHAHA. That was really funny.
• One of my favourite moments of the panel. A fan asked if he'd ever been mistaken for another celebrity, and he said just a few days ago he had been in San Fransisco buying a coffee at Starbucks. The girl serving was so nervous and he was trying to tell her its ok (aww). There were two guys in the back; the first asked who it was, and the second replied "i think its Zac Efron!" LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL. THAT IS SOO FUNNY. And then the guy says that he didn't think Zac had so much facial hair! Hahhahahaha. Good lord. I loved that story. Jared was laughing so hard too. It was awesome.
• Somebody asked him how the hell he managed to get in those RedBull derby cars LOL. Jared said getting in was fine, but getting out was not so heroic. When he first arrived, the guys working there were like "are you a celebrity or something?" hahaha. He said they were hyped up on Red Bull ;) And there was a crash in the first race which got he and Jensen more nervous! But JAred told the guys to push him really hard so he could win lol!
• Out of all the female characters in the show, Jared would date Dean Winchester AHAHA. He then added the Shtriga from 1x18 lol. I thought that was a silly question; god bless Jared for the way his mind works - he answered it perfectly.
• One person asked Jared where he was hoping the story would go in the future, and Jared just said "to Hawaii" Ahahaha! He later elaborated on the actual plot moving towards the brothers going head to head (he realy enjoys that conflict) but i thought the first answer was golden.
• Something i found really interesting was that Jared said he did actually work with the boy playing young!Sam, helping to get the mannerisms right. I always thought young!Sam did a particularly awesome job, and it was good to hear that effor had been put into it.
• Somebody wanted to give Jared the Aussie Chant, so the whole room exploded with it lol! Jared look enthralled. At the end of his panel he spontaneously yelled "Aussie, Aussie, Aussie!" so we could respond to him lol! I think he really wanted to give it a go himself.
• I remember the girl that told Jared a story wanted to show him her tattoo on her leg. As she was coming up to the stage, Jared asked "Leg isn't Australia for something else is it?" LOL. That was one of my favourite comments as well. So Jared.
• When he told us the story of how he broke his arm, the room gave a collective "aww" which Jared loved lol! So he pulled a sad face so we would all do it again hahahahaha. He said he loved a crowd that gave him such reactions.
• A young fan asked if Jared had had any fangirl/fanboy moments, and Jared said "no", shortly followed by "are you offering?" HAHA.
• Somebody asked when he thought of Sam's character movement, and Jared explained it really well, quoting the line "eeryone is the hero f their own story". So Sam believes that its up to him; he thinks he's the one that needs to be able to do it, so he's working towards being strong enough because he thinks he can get there.
• At the end of Jared's panel there was an auction for a tshirt he was going to sign, and during the bidding Jared just spent the whole time drawing lol! He put the shirt on right away which earned screams from the crowd, then he yelled back "you're supposed to scream when i wake it off!" Lol! And to up the bidding, he kept wiping it on his face to get sweaty hahahaah! It was hilarious. He drew himself, Jensen, the stick drawing from 3x05, and a fantale aha.

• One of the very first things Jensen said when he got on stage was a request for the aussie chant, which he dutifully gave ;) As if we would deny him!
• When asked about the craziest fan moment, he talked about the classic tale of the London girl who jumped on him, and he said he gave her a forearm to the throat in automatic defense lol!!
• One of the most interesting stories he told was in response to a question about the mechanics of the opening scene of Lazarus Rising when he was in the coffin. Apparently the dirt that spilled into the coffin when he pushed it up was crushed oreo crumbs! Hahaha. And poor Jensen said he forgot to put in his earplugs, so he was picking out oreo crumbs from his ears for a week LOL.
• Somebody brought up the time when a person snuck onto the Supernatural set by pretending to be part of the crew, and asked what set Jensen would like to sneak onto. He answered Lost, because "Those S.O.B.'s get to work in Hawaii" ahahaha! And because its such a huge cast they don't work as many days as he does either. Lol! Jensen's jealous.
• A fan asked how much imput Jensen has into the execution of his character, or whether all direction is given to him. Jensen said if he thinks a line isn't in character for Dean, i quote, "i just change it. 'Cause that's how i roll" HAHAHAHA.  Brilliant. But he said that's a hard thing to di when Eric's directing the episode, becase its hard to give advice to Dean's creator lol!
• Jensen said Jared was his closest friend! SO CUTE.
• Out of absolutely nowhere, Jared just came onto stage and gave Jensen a water bottle, then left again! I knew, inside, that Jared wouldn't be able to resist coming out at least once.
• Something i considered interesting was that Jensen said he really loved it when the brothers were united when fighting evil. As opposed to Jared's interest to the brothers butting heads.
• HE DID BLUE STEEL. Somebody asked two questions, and after answering the first he said "and", then tacked on the face lol!! It was so good.
• Somebody asked if Jensen could try a fantale, and Jensen went to the packet to read it out and see what they were. He ended up rounding up the wrappers left over from the millions Jared ate lol, and he called Jared a "slob", and said "that's why we can't have nice things" lol. Not 30 seconds later the door opened and Jared poked his head in to yell back "you're a slob!" and disappeared again HAHAHAHA.
• As the bidding continued, Jensen began to wipe his face and neck on the shirt to up the price, like Jared did lol!
• Close to the end of the auction, the host said that she felt like an auctioneer. Jensen came forward and began impersonating an auctioneer with the fast speech and everything haha! It was SO cool! I love the way Jensen just comeso ut with impersonations like that. He's always got a surprise hidden inside!

Title: My Soul Has Been Shipped Away
Author: aja_evenstar 
Fandom: Pirates of the Caribbean
Characters: William Turner is the only character from the trilogy
Warning/Rating: PG perhaps. Spoilers for "At World's End"
Disclaimer: I don't own William.
Summary: Centuries has passed. Its now the 1940s, but the legend of Davy Jones is true.
Beta: thankyou tosrchxandxdstry for helping me bring the story up to its full potential =)

A.N.// This is a REALLY old idea i planned months and months and months ago, but never got around to actually doing. It changed a little bit in the writing process, but the basic concept is still there. I'm actually pretty happy with this fic overall.